THE WINNER IS…
by Tasha Page-Lockhart
by Marita Kinney
2017 by Tasha Page-Lockhart
I would like
to first thank my husband Clifton Lockhart. Thank you for loving me
no matter what. You have played such a major irreplaceable role in my
life. I don't know where I'd be if God hadn't used you to bring me
back to Him. Thank you for choosing me even though my past said RUN.
You honored me and made me your wife and for that I'm grateful and I
I can't move
on any further without acknowledging my two amazing children Ronald D
and CJ. Each week you share me with people all over the world. I know
sometimes it gets hard and I may miss a basketball game or two, but I
work tremendously hard so that I can provide a lifestyle for you that
I never had. I love to see you both happy and safe.
I know for a fact that God sent you to me. Thank you for your
patience and assistance in helping me to get this book done. I really
appreciate everything you have done for me. You have been a blessing
to me and I pray that God returns it back to you 100 fold.
definitely not least I want to take a moment and list a few names of
some people that were influential in my growth and deliverance
Brooks, Pastor Lisa Brooks (my mother), Elder Thomas Page (my
Father), Prophet Todd Hall, Bishop Hezekiah Walker, Bishop J. C.
Williams, Matt Ables, Shalae Madison, Denise Wiggins, and Dr. Nicole
this book to my Grandmother, the late Shirley Ann Harris. She taught
me how to pray until I felt the power of God! She loved me and I
loved her so much.
dedicate this book to the late Apostle, Christopher Poole. He
unlocked a desire for ministry in me. He helped me to see what was
by Tasha Page-Lockhart.
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the Winner Is...
Right Back Mom
Packs a Day
Marita Kinney, BCC
struggles in life can appear to be impossible and extremely
discouraging. Although you may feel defeated in some areas of your
life, you can become victorious through Jesus Christ. Tasha
Page-Lockhart is a perfect example of what it means to become a true
winner in life. When I first met her at a conference that we both
spoke at, I knew that we had something in common: pain. We were
overcomers, with “a kindred spirit,” as she likes to say. The
anointing in her voice told an unspoken story. That story is shared
in this book.
millions of women with layers of pain and adversity who are
desperately trying to find hope as they peel away every layer. Tasha
selflessly shares her testimony with boldness, giving her readers the
encouragement to press forward no matter what they have experienced
in life. God has a way of making her story believable to others,
causing you to see what you’ve gone through.
As she guides
you through the most fragile times of her life, not to glorify her
struggles but to take the power of silence away from the enemy,
you’ll begin to see God’s hand all over her. Everyone wants to be
anointed but no one wants to be crushed in order to get the oil. I
commend Tasha for her transparency throughout her book. It was
defiantly written with a purpose and passion. Allow this book to
minister to your spirit and not be read through your carnal eyes.
nothing in your life that cannot be used for the glory of God. The
word tells us in James 1:2 to count it all joy. Do you trust God with
your darkest moments? Nothing that has happened in your life was in
vain. He wants to mold you, shape you, and build you for His purpose.
Yes! Even your pain has a purpose. It can destroy you or make you.
You’ll read how the trials in Tasha’s life were used to make her.
None of us would be who we are without the rough side of the
mountain. Romans 8:28, “And we know that in all things God works
for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to
be birthed out of pain. A lot like Tasha, I too had endured many
hardships throughout my life. The more I tried to figure things out
on my own, the more broken I became. I was addicted to pain and
couldn’t see myself living any other way. I’m so thankful that I
serve a God that restores. He taught me how to turn my pain into hope
for others. My unspoken walk in darkness came to an end through
Jesus’s blood that was shed for me. God’s light began to shine
through me. I became a best-selling author with over 35 published
titles, sharing God’s grace and mercy with the world. I too am a
winner, and Tasha’s book will allow you the opportunity to discover
the winner inside of you.
You have either purchased my book or borrowed it from someone−either
way I thank you. Thank you for going on this journey of healing with
me. God has a way of showing you things about yourself that you would
never have seen on your own. I never thought I'd ever write a book,
ever! I love to write music and sometimes as a teen I would write
down my prayers but that's about it. I paused to cry about three
times while working on this because I couldn't believe that I had
survived it all. Some memories were so removed from my mind that
until I began to dig deeply into my cloudy past, I could relive them
again by writing this book. I couldn't believe that I had been such a
terrible mother early on in my life. I guess that's why I spoil my
children now−trying to make up for what was.
chapters to come, you will walk with me throughout my childhood,
growing up in the COGIC church (The Church of God In Christ) and see
what it was like having a gospel sensation as a mom. If someone were
to ask me if I had a painful childhood, I would say NO. After reading
the first few chapters, you may have a different opinion. I say that
because, yes, like any family we had secrets. But through it all. my
parents loved me and they did the best they could with what they had.
They created so many amazing moments with me and my sisters that I
often forgot about the other stuff until I was alone with just my
thoughts and me. This is not a “tell all” book or a book to bash
or defame anyone's character. I am only saying what God allows me to
say in hopes that someone will be set free and encouraged.
As you read, I
admonish you to lay aside your titles and positions and allow
yourself to reflect on what life for you was, what life is now, and
what you want your life to become. After you have done that, pray for
strength, as I have, to make the necessary changes to your life that
will please God. Feel free to pause and cry if that's what it takes
to get it out. You may need to call and ask someone to forgive you or
tell them that you forgive them. Hey, do whatever it takes to get to
your happy place. Do what you have to do to WIN! That is the point of
this book; it's not that I won a reality singing competition but that
I won over the enemy. I won over myself, my insecurities, my own
failures and mistakes. With the help of God, family and friends, I
overcame drug addiction. I kicked a nasty habit of cigarette smoking,
and I stopped living my life as a victim of molestation. If I can do
it, then so can you! We are all winners. Let's walk.
And The Winner Is . . .
was around the end of February, 2013. I got a phone call from a
family friend and he said, “Tasha, the Lord put it in my heart to
send you to audition for Sunday
I immediately said, “No, I don't want to do it. I'm not into
competitions.” I was just totally against the whole idea of
competitions, and a gospel competition show at that. I told him that
I would pray about it and call him back with a final answer. What he
didn't know was that before he called, I was in the middle of
recording an audition video for a role in the Broadway production
I wanted to play Gladys Knight, and so I had been studying one of her
hits “Midnight Train to Georgia.” I said a short prayer asking
God what I should do about the Sunday
audition and then immediately went back to preparing this Broadway
audition video. Approximately 30 minutes after speaking with my
friend, I received a text message from my cousin Monica Brown that
read, “Hey, Cuz, I'm sending you the link to this website to find a
song for an audition for Sunday
It's Your Time! “I couldn't believe it. I was lying across my bed
and I looked up while laughing and said, “God are you serious?
Okay, Okay. I get it; I'll go.”
So then I
instantly shifted gears. It was no longer about the Broadway
production because apparently God had another plan and He had
intervened. I started practicing one of the songs on the list, then
thought to myself maybe I should call and discuss this with my
husband and my mom. When I told my husband (Clifton) what I was
thinking about doing, he started laughing and then said, “If God
said do it, then I support you 100%.” I didn't really know how to
take that because the laughter threw me, but at least I had his
support, so I took that. My mom, on the other hand, wasn't so
supportive of the idea. She actually advised me not to go through
with it only because she knows how political the music industry can
be, and she didn't want me to get hurt. I totally understood where
she was coming from but because I believed that this was what God
wanted for my life, I decided to go for it. It is very rare that I go
against my mom's counsel when it comes to music and ministry, but
this I had to do for me.
had been planning a birthday musical to be held at the church, The
Rose of Sharon COGIC (Pastor Ronald Griffin) where I served as Music
Director at the time. The musical was a major success. It was packed
to capacity, and we had a life-changing encounter with God. I
announced that I had decided to audition for BET Networks' Sunday
I was overtaken with emotion to see so many people rooting for me. It
made me feel so confident to know that I had the support of my city.
So the next day I flew to Houston, where I had a few days before the
audition. Coincidentally, it was my birthday, so I went shopping and
out to dinner with my “mother-in-love” who was living there at
the time. We had such a great time, and the weather was just
beautiful! I was soon reminded by a family friend what I was actually
there for when she asked me to sing my audition song for her. I
immediately got extremely nervous and almost changed my mind about
going through with the auditions.
morning had come for me to audition, and I was scared out of my mind.
I'm always very nervous before I sing anywhere, but this time it was
way worse than ever before. When I got there, I found a line outside
leading into registration. Unfortunately, I had to wait but not as
long as some of the others who had been there all night. I guess I
arrived at the perfect time when the line was somewhat short. There
was a ton of paperwork to fill out, and I was given a number,
separated from Mom Lockhart, and directed to a waiting section. We
were at a humongous church, and the whole scene was without question
intimidating−to say the least. I kept thinking, “Why am I here,
why am I here? There are tons of great singers here; I don't belong
here.” I purposely didn't go in name-dropping and telling people
who my mother was. For those of you who don't know my mom, she is
gospel recording artist Lisa Page-Brooks from the award winning all
female group, Witness. I didn't use my mother's name to get special
treatment. perks or favoritism. I went through the whole process like
everyone else. After a long day and rounds of singing, I was given a
“Yes” from all three judges and was one step closer to possibly
making it on the show. A few weeks went by and they called me back to
say that I was chosen as a contestant on “Season 6” of BET's
I was in total shock walking through the mall in tears. I started
scrambling and pulling things together for my wardrobe.. My family
and friends all came together and donated money and clothes to make
sure I looked good on television. I have the most amazingly
supportive family in the world.